Review

Finally had my 3 month review done for work on Sunday. I got a 67 out of 100... that sucks. Big time. And it makes me angry because I work my ASS off at that job and a guy who slacks like mad and is always getting "talked to" got an 81. I was so angry with that score... plus I only got a 10 cent raise... my mum happened to be talking to the head huncho (ya thats spelled wrong) about a week ago and she implied Id be getting between 20 and 30 cents extra.
In a way I wanna quit... say "screw u" and go. But in a way I don't. I like the people, and it IS my first full time job... so my paychecks aren't BAD. Plus I think I am pretty secure there.
A bunch of people I like working with keep threatening to quit though which will suck... but oh well. I could do with not starting at 6 in the morning... then again I love having the rest of the day free, and if I switched to say, 6 hrs instead of 8 and worked 8-2 I would totally feel it in the pay departement.
I know other jobs pay higher... but without a car or any skill, this is pretty much it for me for now. Plus I hate starting over. Ive had... a lot of jobs. Let's see... when I was 15 I worked at MacDonalds. When I was 19 I worked at Zellers, when I was 20 I worked at Zehrs and a one week stint at this other store, when I was 21 I worked at Dairy Queen and now at 22 Im at Timmy's. I don't wanna start yet again, probably at only only part time. Plus it's nice knowing Im ALWAYS gonna be off at 2pm any day I work. Plus I can do my night schooling without worrying about working around my schedual.
Anywho... wow what a boring blog, but I needed to vent.
*Out*

Alicia

Leaving in 20 mins to babysit Alicia. Don't have much to say to whoever reads this... which I think is only Kyle... Im not even sure. I get random people in my gb now and then, but no one ever comments. Hmm...
Something to ponder.
But ya... Im bored. Certian someone at work pissed me OFFFFFFFF today, but I think she has this weekend off thank GOD. If not Im switching weekends, thats all there is to it!
oooommmgggg... Im tired and bored. I need a hobby or to get into a sport or something. I need to be entertained. I need a bf or something I think. Actually now I need food cuz Im hungry. Maybe there is some good food at Alicia's house...
K, Im outtie

Smells like ass

Im tired. Its only like 9:30, but I stayed up late last night cuz I had the day off today. I work the next four days, maybe more. It's weird, I like work and I don't. My boss was on vacation for 2 weeks and work was fun... now she's back and I've got that "I dunno wanna go today" feeling again. Although I like the people. Most of them...
Haha... we made an alliance at work. Me, Kellie, Drew, Shayne, Rebecca and Megan. The 6 of us are like, against certian people at work and we gossip and them and tell eachother if they said something bad about us. It's fun. We're SO mature... lol. Well everyone but me and Kellie are like 16 or 17... I am 22 and Kel is 28... so we are a tad pathetic but who cares!!!! She's so funny too cuz she came up to me the other day and is like "the alliance knows something..."
She makes me laugh... days I come in work depressed she pulls me out of it. Her and Drew, I feel so lucky to know them. Can't really BE depressed around those two!
Anywho Im SOOOO tired... and I think Ky is coming down to spend the night again so Im gonna go. Latah...
OH! And it smells like ass down here cuz my stupid sister made shrimp! EWWWW

Ever felt like you were dreaming? Just to find that you're awake...

I have the urge to write a great book. One that everyone will read and go "wow... this girl knows how to express herself!" The problem is, I need the idea. I have had about a dozen great ideas in my hear, but I can't put them DOWN on paper. and in all honesty, they'd make better movies. That's half the reason I am going to college for directing/writer/producing because I want to make films. I want my ideas OUT there because I can't seem to express them on paper all too well. In the past few years I have started writing so many books, and then stopped after a chapter or two because I was disappointed with the results. It is SO frusterating!
I can't wait until my life kick starts. Because it is summer, I haven't been doing any schooling and I feel like Im in limbo. I can't do what I love til I go thru college and I can't do that til I finish High School and I can't right now cuz it's summer... AHH!
I have to make sure to discipline myself tho. Because I realized I have like 8 credits I need and that's 4 years of school if I don't do correspondence. Thing with correspondence tho... it is BORING. I fucking hate it. But if I buckle down I can get a credit in like 2 or 3 weeks that way. Depending on how hard I work. Shit, I could get it in a day if I were commited enough!
So I am taking a gr 11 computer course starting in October and a gr 12 one in Feb. That means I have to get... let me see... I have 19... I THINK I was given 6 maturity credits. That would mean I have 5 corrspondence to do. Ew... and I have to see my counsellor because he didn't give me PROOF of the maturity credits and you can't get em anymore... argh. Im a mess. That's why I am spazing... my life is on hold til bloody September and it's killing me!
Well at least I got my G1 license and I am working. At least Im not the pathetic useless lump I once was. I serve people coffee and donuts! WOO! I am an awesome member of society... *sigh* Shit I can't wait to get out of here...

Feeling Pink

My fav colour is pink. A few months ago I suddenly realized how much I loved the colour. I went out and bought pink sheets and decided to make my bedroom pink... and then I decided to make my living room black, white and hot pink. Then a few days ago I watched a biography on my favourite actress (Mariska Hargitay)'s mother Jayne Mansfield. It talked brielfy about how much she loved pink and it was her signature colour.
So ALL that inspired this theme. I like it. I'm not overly proud of it because I just threw it together in about an hr. But for an hr's work it's not BAD. I just feel so pinky lately!
Anywho there it is. Love it or hate it!

Blech

Got strep throat again... called in sick on Friday eventho I had the weekend off cuz I felt like shit. Then later that day work calls and I thought maybe they wanted to see how I was doing? No... they asked me to come in on Sat. I was like "No, probably not cuz I have strep throat" and they are like "Well if you want, you can come in Sunday, call and let us know if you are feeling better" Sheesh... I didn't go in yesterday or today. I feel like heck today so mum is taking me to get some fresh air... going on a drive. I have to work 6 days next week... which kinda sucks.
Anywho, Im bored. Waiting for mum to get ready to leave. It's August already... I can't believe it. It feels like we just had Xmas and already next Xmas is less then 5 months away. Time sure flies sometimes. My sister and I made a tape yesterday that we're gonna seal and not listen to til next summer. We have our little goals on it for what we want done by next yr. It'll be interesting to see how far off we are in our lives next yr!!!
Okie, I hear mum upstairs so I guess it's time to go. *out*