I am very nervous around Scott. He doesn't know I know. Hmm.
I am closing at the store for the first time today! I am SO nervous. I am sure I will fuck up and the
balance in the till will be way low and that scares me. TOO MUCH RESPONSABILITY!!! I am going to visit
my uncle and his gf on Sunday. I am nervous. I havent seen them since summer 99 and
at the time I didn't like his gf very much. I... well... let's just say it takes a lot for me to like
new people. Especially people new to the family. I dunno why. Just the way I am. I don't like outsiders
and I feel THEY have to work to get me to like THEM. But I like Sue (my uncle's gf) now. Well, I haven't
talked to her personally, but my mum has and says she is cool. I tend to think the same as my mum. We
share a brain I think.

Well now I know why this guy wants nothing to do with me. He's well... not into girls. *rolls eyes*
Figures. Oh well. Oh and I don't hate my job anymore. I have lightened up a bit since earlier this month.

Started this page. It is small right now and pathetic. It'll grow in time. Thanks to my host, she is
a sweety.
Some things whoever is reading this should know about me. I work at a little dinky shithole store in a
little dinky shithole mall. I hate my job and my job hates me. The only thing that keeps me from quitting
is Scott. I am in like with Scott. He is one of my co-workers. He is sweet and I love the days I work
with him. I want to tell him how I feel about him, but I am a big fat chicken. He is cute and funny and he
seems like the kind of guy who would protect me. But he has no interest in me.