Klutz

OMG I have been acting weird at work lately. This 5 day stretch was so bizarre for me! I started off by flubbing what I was saying whenever I spoke on drivethu, saying dumb or weird stuff. Then I couldn't find the buttons on the till. I have the til bloody memorized... i could draw a pic of it right now! Yet I couldnt find fucking "large tea with 3 milk" LOL
Then yesterday I was dropping everything. Everytime I had lids (for cups) or money, I dropped it. Then like halfway through my shift I was filling the hot chocolate machine with chocolate powder and it slipped and in a big cloud of chocolate dust I was COVERED in cocoa powder. I coughed and opened my eyes, looked at the mess and at my shirt and was lost for words. The girl at bagel counter looked at me, total shock! Then that was taken over by laughter. Til then I didn't know whether to laugh or cry. I kinda did both! Thank God Paula had another shirt for me. I got the stains out today with the help of mommy :p
OKay so today at work it's 1:45pm... I was about to finish in 15 mins with no real accidents! I was happy, went to grab a drink, the mug slips and SMASH... I broke a Tim Horton's mug. No one was surprised it was ME who did it either!!!
Anywho I think it's cuz this is the last week or my three month probation and Im usually fired in the first 3 months of a job... maybe in the back of my head Im nervous?
ANYWHO I get the next two days off and tomorrow NIARGA FALLS BABY! WOO!
Hope I have fun... *ponders*

Im starting to feel myself drift again, and I don't want that to happen...
I kept feeling like I was going to faint at work... I was in a depression... and I don't want to be there anymore. It sucked. Maybe it's cuz my sister just entered into a relationship with a hot guy and it makes me want someone to love, who loves me, even more. Ive been desperatly lonely since I left my last bf way back in 99... and Im feeling it 10x more now then ever. I want a relationship. Someone who loves me. But I know I have to heal ME first... and I thought I was doing good til today.
Oh well... just take a breath, smile and carry on. It would be easier if I had someone to talk to, but at least I have a place to write... right?
Hmm... that's another thing I crave... a friend. Someone to talk to. I have a couple girls at work who are friend-like... but just at work friends. I need someone to tell all my troubles too... it's hard finding that person tho. Someone who will tolerate all I have to say and still wanna hang out at the mall the next day like nothing happened!
Hmm... okay time to get myself outta this slump!!!!!!!! Im going to Niarga Falls on Thurs for Canada's Day. I booked off Thurs and Fri (eventho it means working 5 days in a bloody row and 3 weekends in a row!!!) and I can't wait. We went last yr. I loved it. Ill love it this yr too. Im so looking forward to it. Be prepared for piccys!!!!!

Busy Week..

Ahh my first day off in, well only two days but Ive been so tired lately it's nice. On Sunday was my parents anniversary AND father's day in one. My parents went out and did the dinner and movie thang while us kids stayed home and made them cards and stuffs we know would make em cry... well mum anyway hehe.
Last week I saw Harry Potter and OH MY GOD it is the best one. Go see it now it bloody rocks! Man if I was seven years younger...
Yesterday my brother graduated from grade 8. I still remember my grade 8 grad. Miserable for me, but he had a good time at his. And I ofcourse got some piccies.
Take a look see :p
As always you can click a pic to get a bigger view... sometimes much bigger!

This is my sister and I doing our "super model thang"


Me and my sister and brother... it's scary how much taller he is then us now!


My brother getting his diploma... aww. I used to have a huge crush on the teacher on the left...


I love this pic of my mum... I did good taking this one! You would never believe how old she is irl... she looks awesome.


Another good picture taking job on my part... my sis looks so pretty here!


He obviously doesn't like being touched my his yucky sister eh??


Me and Ky... aww

Feeling Loved...

OMG it feels like all Ive been doing is working! But I like it. I had yesterday off after working all weekend and I worked today, working stright thru til Fri and then I have the weekend off. YAYYY!
It's funny, how much I crave feeling loved and accepted and wanted and needed.... I simply crave it. Today as I was leaving work, one of the girls who calls me "Wah-shlee" (try and pronounce that :p) called out "Bye Wah-shlee!" and I laughed and said bye. Then another girl said "Bye..." pretending to be all hurt I forgot her. I said bye and then like 3 more girls said bye and I called "Bye everyone!" and got a little laugh. Something that stupid and trivial makes me so damn happy... hmm. Something to think about eh?
Something that is weird... someone once told me the reason I am over weight eventho I eat FAIRLY healthy and I don't OVER eat is because I don't love myself Im always down, yadda yadda. I was like ya whatever... but since Ive lightened up and became happier I HAVE started losing weight. I noticed my pants were baggy, so I tried on a size smaller and they just BARELY fit. About 2 weeks later I tried again and they fit. So I bought em last week and I can already take em off without undoing them. Amazing isn't it? It probably also has to do with the fact Im working... but hey whatever works I ain't complaining! Also, since my mental makeover I am no longer tired all day. I use to sleep 12 hours and be tired all day long. Now I sleep 6 hours (HALF that!) work 8 bloody hours and I am in a great happy colourful hyper mood all day. :p :p :p Someone smack this outta me! hee.
Anywho Im gonna go play this awesome game I rented called Harvest Moon. Another game I am addicted too. Ha.

Oy Ive been sick the past few days. I got strep throat along with something else. Sucks big time. I went to work on Wed and I started getting a sore throat in the afternoon. Then I babysat Allanah that night from 5-7 and I felt like crap. (Got some REAL cute piccys tho!) so when I got home I was in bed at like 8 and I basically lied there all nauseas and feeling horrid til 1am when I called work and said I wasn't coming in. No way I was waking up in 4 hours and working!
So I played hooky. Then I went to work yesterday and I actually feel better today. Going to get a new comp so I can play the newer versions of Sims. Leaving as soon as my hair dries. Then a little later I'm gonna go see the new Harry Potter and tomorrow I am seeing Kill Bill Vol 2! This is gonna be a pretty good weekend for moi. Then I work Mon and Tues BUT because of "Camp Week" we get to wear these cute baggy teeshirts and jeans! Ya baby, Ill finally be comfy at work hehe.
Anywho Im out. Next time I write in here it'll be from a sweet new compy! That I'm buying with my own money... hehe. So exciting! :p

Strawberry Rubarb

Went to my second candle party on Sunday. It was real fun. There was a good crowd, about 11 people. A friend of mine's from work, Melissa, hosted it. She rocks. I never ordered anything from my last party, but from this one I am going to. The candles and... accesorries are pretty expensive, but nice. And Im working fulltime now so why the heck not?? My new fav colour is pink. Im pink CRAZEE right now. And it has to be the right shade too. Well, in the catalogue there is a pink candle, huge, and the perfect colour. It smells like strawberry rubarb. Im redoing my bathroom in pink and green to match a purse I bought and Im getting that candle and the honeydew melon. It'll smell like a fruit salad in the bathroom!!!!! But a bathroom is a neat place to smell like fruit!
I spent all morning applying for credit cards at various places. Ive been at my job a little over 2 months only, but I really wanna start building my credit rating... so we'll see what happens!
Last night I babysat Alicia Amy and Dillion. Alicia is growing like a bloody weed. She is so much bigger everytime I see her!! On the new site Im building I'll have more recent pictures of her. Her curls are getting longer and she is getting taller and starting to speak! Last night she said "where the ball?" the first sentence I ever heard her speak. I had so much fun with her last night, and the other two as well. It's funny, their mum always she's she knows how much of a job it is taking care of Alicia, so to kick the other two (ages 7 and 12) out of the livingroom to their own rooms so they won't bother me... but I never have the heart. The four of us always have so much fun together, I don't wanna spend my time there without them. But... at 9 o'clock they better all be in bed!!!!!! hehe