Failed a test today... I got perfect on the last one and like 98% the one before that.
I havent gotten the mark but I KNOW I failed. I did this shit a million times but I drew
a blank today. We do tests everyday and I fail the one worth the most. OY!
I am going for my driving test G1 a week from tomorrow. A girl from school is taking me
up to get it done. I will fail, Im sure. $100 down the toilet. My mum says I am too
negitive but Christ, I have good reason. I barely have joy and it is so depressing.
I just wanna be a good person and be loved. I want SOME luck in life and I have none.
Even little things... I go to chat with a friend online and I am looking forward to it,
and my msn crashes and STILL won't work. I am working on a graphic that's turning out
great and my comp crashes and won't restart. I go to print something I NEED for school that
day and my printer REFUSES to work without just cause. I am having a great time around a new group
of people and I say something stupid and make myself sound like a fucking retard... ANYTHING.
I am Miss Bad Luck and I fucking hate it. This has been going on for like YEARS. At least
since I was 16. That's the last time I had a real friend was at 16. Last date I had was when
I was 17. I am fucking 21 without friends or a lover and do you KNOW how lonely it is?
And it's not like I dont try. I go to work and I am super nice and friendly and giving
but so I make friends? Nope. Oh I try but they don't call if I give them my number,
and if I leave the job I NEVER hear from them again. No guy takes a second look at me. I
may not be pretty but I am nice, I am! I would be good to any person who loved me. But no
one gives me a chance. Am I that fucking hideous?? Oy what's the use of complaining?
No one who happens to read this will care. I best go.
I havent gotten the mark but I KNOW I failed. I did this shit a million times but I drew
a blank today. We do tests everyday and I fail the one worth the most. OY!
I am going for my driving test G1 a week from tomorrow. A girl from school is taking me
up to get it done. I will fail, Im sure. $100 down the toilet. My mum says I am too
negitive but Christ, I have good reason. I barely have joy and it is so depressing.
I just wanna be a good person and be loved. I want SOME luck in life and I have none.
Even little things... I go to chat with a friend online and I am looking forward to it,
and my msn crashes and STILL won't work. I am working on a graphic that's turning out
great and my comp crashes and won't restart. I go to print something I NEED for school that
day and my printer REFUSES to work without just cause. I am having a great time around a new group
of people and I say something stupid and make myself sound like a fucking retard... ANYTHING.
I am Miss Bad Luck and I fucking hate it. This has been going on for like YEARS. At least
since I was 16. That's the last time I had a real friend was at 16. Last date I had was when
I was 17. I am fucking 21 without friends or a lover and do you KNOW how lonely it is?
And it's not like I dont try. I go to work and I am super nice and friendly and giving
but so I make friends? Nope. Oh I try but they don't call if I give them my number,
and if I leave the job I NEVER hear from them again. No guy takes a second look at me. I
may not be pretty but I am nice, I am! I would be good to any person who loved me. But no
one gives me a chance. Am I that fucking hideous?? Oy what's the use of complaining?
No one who happens to read this will care. I best go.
